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Sunday, December 25, 2005

dragging and dragging
i was reading the previous entries in my blog juz now, reading the few entries tt i haf. It's acherlli quite fun u noe, to look back upon the old times and reminisce abt wad happened back then... altho some of them are not v happy, bud still u get a sense of nostalgia and its... quite fun. Den i came upon one of my old entries tt i felt was one of my better "works" and i er... felt quite impressed with it. Lolx i noe v bhb bud yar... its nice looking back at these things...

This entry was back in Sep 2005, onli a few months back la... here it is:

Some thoughts haf been straying in my mind for the past few months. Juz now, i went back into my depressed state, which occurs every once in a while, and den these thoughts juz kept affecting me. If i dun get some of them down they'll juz keep bugging me, so i was tinking maybe juz get them down den go back and mug or smth...

Every week i look foward to wednesdays and endure thru mondaes and tuesdaes... not juz bcoz they dun taste as gd as the sundaes frm swensons, bud wednesdays got firstly PE, secondly one lecture in sch onli, den one and half hours of free time to slack and tok abt stuff during civics, den there's charmed and cartoons at night and dis drama serial on channel u at 7.30pm called qing2 ding4 ai4 qing2 hai3, i dunno the english name. The cartoons and drama acherlli thurs and fri oso got, bud bcoz wed is start of the week for these, so look foward to wed. Anyway my main pt is not the wed part. Its the drama part.

This show, Qing2 Ding4 Ai4 Qing2 Hai3, i shall call it QDAQH for short, has gotten my mother all hooked onto it and i personally tink its a v nice show. Not juz bcoz the lead actress is pretty, bud oso i feel i can sort of click well with the characters and the way they interact, as in i fully understand how they feel and y they do the things they do, or say the tings they say. Honestly not many shows haf been able to make me feel liddat b4, maybe bcoz i experienced b4 wad some of the characters in the story go thru, den it juz makes me all melancholic and reflective over myself... Oso bcoz there r a lot of things abt life tt u can learn frm this show, and i haf been tinking abt some of the things they toked abt these few weeks...

Do wad u tink is rite, not wad others tink is rite for u. Pple often say we r the masters of our own life, therefore we control our own destiny. Maybe tt's y some pple dun believe in this thing called Fate. Bud i tink both sides are true and i partially believe in fate, while believing in controlling my own life as well. Sometimes u do things for a certain cause, bud sometimes ur actions will be affected by others, wad others say to u and the advices they give. Such advices may work well for certain pple, bud as of biology, there are always exceptions, bcoz some things in life u can nv be able to predict correctly, like pple's behaviour and reactions to certain stuff. Thus there will be different outcomes for pple taking the same advice. In the end the person tt screwed up bcoz he took tt advice will blame the 'advisor' for giving such a stupid idea and ruining his life. Advices onli do so much as to give u options on wad to do. Therefore the best thing to do is to judge for urself wad u shld do, rely on ur intuition to do the rite thing, however wrong it may be.. Coz tt's when u truly experience and learn for urself how to do it rite, and ur intuitive powers bcome more, correct. Tt's when u r truly in control of ur own life.

hmmm.... nvm lets carry on.

The show mentioned something abt frenship and love being mutually exclusive. Feelings of attraction can onli go so far btwn close frens, bud wun go further to the pt of relationship. Even if it does, the relationship wun last, and the couple realises they'r better off as frens. This oso seems to be the case from wad i observe in daily life, tho i wun cite specific examples. Budden i vaguely rmb sum1 saying tt most relationships arise due to frenship... er maybe they dun refer to long term frenship? hmm... Anyway the pt i'm trying to drive at is tt frenship shldnt be confused with love. If u'r meant to be frens den the 2 of u will forever remain frens, bud if u'r meant to be a couple den the mutual attraction shld start at quite an early stage. If there r examples to counter dis statement, plz fill me in on it... oh and dis paragraph izznt directed to anyone hor... its juz a thot tt wld like to share..

Prelims r arnd the corner, esp GP, in juz a few weeks time. Not as if i juz wrote some sort of essay la, dis doesnt count, bud its gd to get some practice here and dere...

Juz now when i was watching the show the ideas juz kept pouring in, bud now at 12 smth i tink i forgot most of them liaoz... shld haf written them down as i watched, den it wld realli haf bcame essay... maybe i shld do tt next time... tt'll be fun...

Tml got chem test and i still havent found my reaction kinetics notes. So dead. Aiya nvm... see how tml la.. and still got AQ to finish.. zzz *end*

er... the last para a bit redundant, i juz ctrl c ctrl v everything... bud looking back at this entry i felt tt it awoken me, reminded me of certain things... well hafta get a grip liaoz, NS round the corner le... cannot be thinking too much abt such stuff...

oh tml gng bintan with 6h pple, altho less than 10 of us going, bud still its going abroad with frens... guess it shld be fun... shall blog abt it when i return...

i'm juz glad tt we were able to make u truly happy for a day... its all tt matters to me...



kyo burning with a fist of Neverdiminishing Flames...@10:40 PM
Saturday, December 10, 2005

And still not done yet...
haha quite a few things happening over the past 2 weeks, bud i v lazy to write them down. Acherlli now i still abit lazy, bud now quite nth to do le, might as well.

Shall start with prom nite first. Ok i noe its been quite a long time since bud this is one of the things tt muz get down de, my first and possibly last prom nite in my life, dunno if uni got prom nites anot... Anywayz after A's we were left with arnd one week or so to get our prom stuff ready, so it was quite a rush la. Went town tt saturday with jim haoz and xianlun hoping to get the clothes bud ended up wasting our entire afternoon squeezing in an MPV with strangers... horrible experience. We saw a coat which caught our eye, and the 4 us wanted to wear tt for prom, bud 4 pple wearing the same coat is like quite gay la... in the end the size tt we wanted was out of stock in juz days, so i had to settle for a similar coat. Tt day itself went to get my hair cut and styled, and my hair was finally straight!!! lolx.. too bad it wun last long de... Anyway prom itself was not bad, food was ok la, din expect it to be tt gd, from wad i heard b4, bud the arrangement was nt bad. Commendable effort by the council i shld say, the thing was v well-prepared. Took a lot of pictures, bud abt half of them the pics v blur, aiya camera phone, cannot expect much, budden its a v ex camera phone leh, i paid for the camera one leh... bud it was a gd experiance la. Wad followed after tt was not. The guys wanted to book a hotel room, bud the price was $390 a nite, friggin ex, and getting a room at tt time is impossible liaoz, no more rooms, so we decided to go RELC get a budget room. Den when we reach there, things got complicated, so we din get the room. In the end we camped at nearby 24-hr macs for the nite, and at 3 smth i decided to juz get a cab home. Wad a nite.

Monday, went to town with grace, her sister and the usual guys xcept xianlun who was in m'sia, to go watch movie. Wanted to watch juz like heaven, bud in the end settled for chicken little. V hilarious movie, and the fish v cute haha. Then walked arnd cine, walked to ps and walked arnd until dinner time. Basically i covered the whole of orchard within these few days la, and i feel after u walk finish orchard once, there's nth much to do there liaoz. Get sick of orchard v quickly. Dun understand how pple can walk along the whole stretch of orchard and back and not get bored...

Tuesday went to buy the necessary food and stuffs for S04 chalet, den went to haoz's hse to play mahjong. Played all the way from arnd 4 smth to 3.30 am, of cuz with breaks in between, and had zhi cha for dinner. Wah i havent had zhi cha in dunno how many years liaoz, ever since the zhi cha stall at my hse hawker centre here closed down. V shiok. Thnx wenhao and family!! Den at 3 smth in the morning we opened a bottle of red wine, and drank more than one glass of wine each. At first it was v shiok, bud towards the end i buay tahan liaoz... Slept at arnd 5 smth until next day 12 noon. not bad sia.

S04 chalet on wednesday!!! got ready and took a cab from haoz's hse to Costa Sands Resort at east coast there. Then while we were walking to macs for lunch, some guy offering bikes for rent gave us a deal for overnight rental of bikes, $15 for bikes with suspension for 2 days 2 nights, and said this was best deal arnd tt area liaoz. When we walked back after our lunch we were approached by another person, offering $10 for bikes with suspension for 2 days 2 nights. -.-'" Lolx in the end we took the $10 ones after a bit of discussion, bcoz we needed bikes onli on the 2nd night. Anyways went back slacked a bit, den got ready for the bbq. The bbq was not bad acherlli, got the fires up v quickly and v nicely as well, thnx to guanwen and xianlun. The food was quite nice too, juz tt we faced usual problem of food being undercooked lolx. The teachers were here too, ms yee and ms aw. Hope they enjoyed their time with us. Played cards after the bbq until 3.30 am again for the man utd match. Was very disappointed with their performance, lost 2-1 and got kicked out of champions league... Haiz... Tried to sleep bud couldn't after the match, den juz sat there with eyes closed until next morning, feeling v groggy. Wonder if i shld haf gone for the walk. hmm... Later in the morning went to the beach to play volleyball, was v fun and it got me back to my normal state again, bud the sun was v hot. Den in the afternoon some of them went to slp up in the bedroom, i wanted to slp too, bcoz i had contacts on and was lazy to go remove them, so i juz sat at the floor and dozed off liddat.

Evening tt time we went to play their so-called "dirty games" which haoz sock ruifen and grace were discussing in private abt thru out the entire chalet. It was acherlli juz zhong ji mi ma, juz tt the forfeit was to burst a balloon filled with flour on the victim. Den everyone was splashed with water as the game progressed, and eventually everyone did get covered in flour. Den as a birthday treat for jim, the rest of us sprayed whipped cream on paper plates and juz piaked onto him. Haha. Happy Birthday Jim!!! And thnx to sock ruifen grace and wenhao for organising the games. After dinner grace went home, which meant tt she couldnt join us for the night-cycling, which was quite sad bcoz she realli wanted to cycle de. So the 4 of us jim haoz seng and i went for the journey. We cycled towards changi there, past bedok jetty, thru some v dark path, and onto a straight road tt was parallel to the airport runway. I tell u tt dark path was really pitch black, and given my condition of night blindness, the 3 red blinking backlights were all i could see nia. And the runway is seriously damn bloody long. We took 20 min to cover the entire stretch from the initial bend to the final bend in the road, cycling at a relatively high speed. Took us an hour to get to changi village, rested for a while there and drinking teh tarik, b4 cycling back. When we reached the chalet we were like so shagged we juz stoned out at the table there, played 3 rounds of cards while cooling down den went up to slp. Came home onli yesteday afternoon, which i slpt all the way from 2 smth to 7. Bud i seriously had a lot of fun during the chalet. Hope we can get to meet up again some time in the future yar.

Oh ya one more thing, we heard a song played on radio, found it v cute and laughed all the way thruout the song. Den i saw the song this morning on kids central and its called "Shnappi the Little Crocodile", which was initally sang by a 4 year old german kid, den his family juz recorded the song and posted it on some website, and the song juz circulated liddat. Anyone got tt song can send it to me plz, thnx. Lolx.

And i still havent had the chance to talk to you in private. Maybe i nv will, maybe the chance will nv come, bud maybe it has come and gone, and i was stupid enuff to let it slip. I onli haf less than a month left to clear things up with u, and though i noe it's bound to happen, i seriously dun wan it to end with juz memories.


kyo burning with a fist of Neverdiminishing Flames...@12:55 PM
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