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Wednesday, August 31, 2005

!!!yaD srehcaeT yppaH

If i continue eating so irregularly, smth bad is bound to happen to my stomach, seriously...

B4 i start i juz wanna say happy teacher's day to all teachers out there, u pple groom the future leaders of the nation, which technically means u pple are better than the leaders of the nation lolx!!

k today was teacher's day celebrations. For me, i feel tt last year's teacher's day celebration was better than this year's... Firstly bcoz i performed last year, muahahaha, altho the response from audience wasn't tt great, bud its the experience tt counts... secondly this year's performances weren't as good as last year's, qualitywise... esp the symphonic band, dis year their percussionist was a ger, meaning no more godly drum solos and drum fills by thomas chia... thirdly there was no live rock band performance this year, so i was a bit disappointed... bud the items were still great, v entertaining. Den when back to class for some 'class party' thingy, and we played pictionary, words and catagory we came up on our own... v fun, shld haf had more of such sessions in the past la, bcoz regrettably we wun be able to play such games as a class anymore, since yesterday was technically the last schoolday of our lives... maybe we can play again during the restructure timetable periods? lolx...

After sch i was left with 2 choices to spend the rest of my day... one is to go back rv visit teachers, meet up with 4h guys since the 4j guys werent going back, den go with them to play lan; another one is come home first, wait till 2 smth den go to meet wh seng and xianlun eat sakae sushi. Since most of the teachers tt taught me in sec 4 had transferred to other schs, i settled for option 2. So i came back, slept a while, den went lot one meet up with them and immediately started chionging sushi. It was damn nice, bud 1+ hrs later i full liaoz, or rather we full liaoz, so we started toking cock until arnd 5 smth, den when we walk out tt time cannot even walk uprite... too bloated le... Went X-square there play xbox until 7 den arrive home.

I juz realized, no matter how confident i am abt the subject or topics tt are to be tested, the results come out still the same. Pple say its all in the mind, and i do respect this saying quite a bit, bud it seems no matter how much effort i put in preparing a test, i'm still not getting the results. Sometimes its careless, bud sometimes its realli bcoz i cant even do the prob, not smart enuff to see the solution. Now i noe how Hong Sung felt 3 years ago during sec 3, b4 he left rv, the helplessness... Bud still life goes on, crying abt it wun do me gd. I will realli hafta mug everyting i got if i wanna see juz a bit of improvement at all...

rite my eyes r closing on me le... shld go zz now. nitez

Juz give me a confirmation, can... it sux living life with u doing things like this to me....

kyo burning with a fist of Neverdiminishing Flames...@11:19 PM
Friday, August 26, 2005

empty

Haiz... Prelims start in 3 days time... And i havent started my revision yet... sian... altho its juz gp, bud the fact tt the prelims are here still remains a fact, and the fact tt i'm still slacking here is truly making me worried. Ok maybe i'll juz go mug, after i'm done here la tt is...

Nth much been happening these few days, except a few laughs here and there, a maths stats test tt killed us again, recent addictions with the rubik's cube... As in nth significant for me to blog abt, and a last entry stuck at 17th Aug sumhow makes me juz wanna update it, no matter how pointless dis entry may seem...

Speaking of the rubiks cube... Most of u shld haf seen it floating arnd places here and there, so it shldnt be too unfamiliar... It's dis solid 3x3x3 cube la, with 9 unit cubes on each face (duh) den got diff colours on each side of the unit cubes, the aim is to rotate the sides of the cube until u get 6 full colours on each face of the cube. Suppose to be a maths puzzle, well it is, if u dunno the trick to it. Eh... acherlli its not quite a trick la, juz tt u'll be able to master it with sufficient practice, and the powerful formulae tt will enable u to solve the entire thing. These few days, bcoz the few of us guys haf been patronizing the newly set-up I&E Hub, and the hub has all sorts of games and puzzles to challenge the mind, me and jim haf taken a fancy on the 2 rubiks cubes in the hub. And since jason, who is already a master at solving it, simply went in and solved the 2 almost immediately, we decided to learn the tricks behind solving dis wonderful invention, bcoz if jason can do it so can we. So these few days whenever we got free period, we juz chiong to the I&E hub and juz sit there and mug on the thing. Den we consulted jason a hell lot of times, and finally after today, we sort of learnt enuff to be able to solve the thing on our own, of cuz not as in obtain jason's level, tt guy's been mugging it since sec 2 or 3, maybe earlier... And when i came home, i took the cube tt remained unsolved since tt time the CCSS camp training there, and applied the formulae and yes!! I finally solved it after more than 9 months since the training sia... Woot!!! Yes to me i tink its a v gd way to destress, if u noe the way to solve it, if not it juz might add on to ur stress level lolx... Bud the satisfaction when u solve the damn thing it juz undescribable...

Life of a maths student. Rite....

Today we had our last PE lesson, of our lives... yep, after today no more pe lessons... NS tt one not counted as PE lesson la... So we played the usual floorball, and its still so fun after all this time. I tink it has become the official class sport liaoz... bcoz every time we got free games, den pple suggest floorball, nobody objects to it... or at least i dun tink there is la... bud yar today's game was v tiring, bud fun nonetheless... And juz tinking tt we wun be able to play floorball officially during lesson is juz demoralizing la.. K maybe demoralizing is not the word to describe it... Bud yar, u noe wad i mean. Of cuz, we can always have unofficial pe, during the restructured timetable period of time after prelims ba... tt'll be gd..

Ooo time to go watch cartoon... Bud i hafta mug!!! Sian... aiya after the cartoons la...

Stop avoiding me. I noe u r. And u noe it hurts me. Yet u dun care. As usual. Haiz....

kyo burning with a fist of Neverdiminishing Flames...@10:05 PM
Wednesday, August 17, 2005

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Some thoughts haf been straying in my mind for the past few months. Juz now, i went back into my depressed state, which occurs every once in a while, and den these thoughts juz kept affecting me. If i dun get some of them down they'll juz keep bugging me, so i was tinking maybe juz get them down den go back and mug or smth...

Every week i look foward to wednesdays and endure thru mondaes and tuesdaes... not juz bcoz they dun taste as gd as the sundaes frm swensons, bud wednesdays got firstly PE, secondly one lecture in sch onli, den one and half hours of free time to slack and tok abt stuff during civics, den there's charmed and cartoons at night and dis drama serial on channel u at 7.30pm called qing2 ding4 ai4 qing2 hai3, i dunno the english name. The cartoons and drama acherlli thurs and fri oso got, bud bcoz wed is start of the week for these, so look foward to wed. Anyway my main pt is not the wed part. Its the drama part.

This show, Qing2 Ding4 Ai4 Qing2 Hai3, i shall call it QDAQH for short, has gotten my mother all hooked onto it and i personally tink its a v nice show. Not juz bcoz the lead actress is pretty, bud oso i feel i can sort of click well with the characters and the way they interact, as in i fully understand how they feel and y they do the things they do, or say the tings they say. Honestly not many shows haf been able to make me feel liddat b4, maybe bcoz i experienced b4 wad some of the characters in the story go thru, den it juz makes me all melancholic and reflective over myself... Oso bcoz there r a lot of things abt life tt u can learn frm this show, and i haf been tinking abt some of the things they toked abt these few weeks...

Do wad u tink is rite, not wad others tink is rite for u. Pple often say we r the masters of our own life, therefore we control our own destiny. Maybe tt's y some pple dun believe in this thing called Fate. Bud i tink both sides are true and i partially believe in fate, while believing in controlling my own life as well. Sometimes u do things for a certain cause, bud sometimes ur actions will be affected by others, wad others say to u and the advices they give. Such advices may work well for certain pple, bud as of biology, there are always exceptions, bcoz some things in life u can nv be able to predict correctly, like pple's behaviour and reactions to certain stuff. Thus there will be different outcomes for pple taking the same advice. In the end the person tt screwed up bcoz he took tt advice will blame the 'advisor' for giving such a stupid idea and ruining his life. Advices onli do so much as to give u options on wad to do. Therefore the best thing to do is to judge for urself wad u shld do, rely on ur intuition to do the rite thing, however wrong it may be.. Coz tt's when u truly experience and learn for urself how to do it rite, and ur intuitive powers bcome more, correct. Tt's when u r truly in control of ur own life.

hmmm.... nvm lets carry on.

The show mentioned something abt frenship and love being mutually exclusive. Feelings of attraction can onli go so far btwn close frens, bud wun go further to the pt of relationship. Even if it does, the relationship wun last, and the couple realises they'r better off as frens. This oso seems to be the case from wad i observe in daily life, tho i wun cite specific examples. Budden i vaguely rmb sum1 saying tt most relationships arise due to frenship... er maybe they dun refer to long term frenship? hmm... Anyway the pt i'm trying to drive at is tt frenship shldnt be confused with love. If u'r meant to be frens den the 2 of u will forever remain frens, bud if u'r meant to be a couple den the mutual attraction shld start at quite an early stage. If there r examples to counter dis statement, plz fill me in on it... oh and dis paragraph izznt directed to anyone hor... its juz a thot tt wld like to share..

Prelims r arnd the corner, esp GP, in juz a few weeks time. Not as if i juz wrote some sort of essay la, dis doesnt count, bud its gd to get some practice here and dere...

Juz now when i was watching the show the ideas juz kept pouring in, bud now at 12 smth i tink i forgot most of them liaoz... shld haf written them down as i watched, den it wld realli haf bcame essay... maybe i shld do tt next time... tt'll be fun...

Tml got chem test and i still havent found my reaction kinetics notes. So dead. Aiya nvm... see how tml la.. and still got AQ to finish.. zzz

kyo burning with a fist of Neverdiminishing Flames...@10:02 PM
Saturday, August 13, 2005

Change is gd

What an interesting day today turned out to be. Bud b4 i touch on today, sumting inside me wans me to briefly go thru national day tt day. So ok lor, narrate wad happened on tue... Dun worry, it'll be brief...

Tue National Day, was supposed to meet 6hers at bedok to go east coast park, bud i geh kiang go tell them i ownself take bus meet them at ecp there, cos the bus terminates at upp east coast raod. Turned out tt upp east coast rd was quite far from ecp, den i was like... where e hell am i? The interchange was like in the middle of a forest, some ulu ulu place... searched for half an hour and decided to give up, so i took a cab there... Den when i reached there, rented a bike and cycled all the way to meet them. A while later my one of my sandals broke, den i was walking barefooted along the footpath... while the other guys went canoeing, i juz slacked at the coast with kexin and the gers. Den went esplanade there watch fireworks, v nice... as in really v nice... den slacked around at suntec until v late. K i dun tink tt was v brief, bud i honestly left out a lot of details, if not this entry will be dedicated to narration on ND, budd yar...

This morning had to reach sch earlier, cos principal giving vouchers to all NE Ambs for our contribution during Cultural mapping, bud ended up still barely reached sch on time... den after assembly we had to go atrium for photo taking, so mrs marianne tan was there to help us take photo... den when ms sharon phua told us to space out abit so tt the photo captured the background, mrs tan said, "arr shuddup la!!" 0.0!!!!! LOLX First time see any teacher dare to use such attitude towards ms phua... den all of us down there stun tio... nv has any teacher or student dared to treat ms phua so lightly lor... lolx kaoz wad a day to rmb in NJ history sia... lolx..

And so the day carried on... tutorial was as usual, phy lecture slpt like no need money liddat, maths test bloody screwed, gp today damn slack, and PE cancelled and no one told us... great... Den went with jim and haoz go wheelock bcoz jim wanted to buy a crumpler bag... -.- too much money sia... heard tt sixun grace maisha and ruifen at PS swensons enjoying $4 icecream, so we decide to go join in the fun... den the 3 of us each ordered u.p. $7.50 worth of sundae... wah it was damn bloody shiok la, bud damn fattening as well... and after tt had a lot of phlegm in my throat... bud such stuff for $4 was definitely worth it man... u all shld go try... weekdays onli hor the offer... den went arnd to shop for teachers day present, and settle for a cute turtle... acherlli its not particularly cute la... bud oh well, bought liaoz so...
yar...

Sometimes i really wonder when is my life gonna change for the better. Maybe i really need to put in the effort for it, bud y does it always seem to change naturally and automatically for others... Like previous times, its starting to get boring again, and my mother juz makes it sound so easy... "juz bear with it for this few months..." This few months will seem like an eternity lor... maybe i shld juz change the way i look at it... bud hor... haizz...

Is sum1 getting the bestX4 of u??

kyo burning with a fist of Neverdiminishing Flames...@12:03 AM
Monday, August 08, 2005

Happy B'dae Singapore

haha ok i noe its been ages since my last update... better update now, if not it'll bcome like last time liddat... ops =X

Let's start from yesterday. Yesterday went for my sister's baby's (ok my nephew..) er... wad do u call it... One Month Anniversary party?? Aiya in chinese it's called man yue... juz to celebrate the baby's first month in this world. yar... acherlli i was quite late, coz i woke up late, den by the time i reach my sis's house quite a lot of the guests left liaoz... bud nvm, still got to kope the food, and most importantly, see the baby!!! He's damn cute la... v small, bud yar v cute... his name's Ethan, well they thot it was a nice name... i dunno...

Den after tt later in the evening went for guitar's senior's farewell, turned out the onli j2 guys who went were Govin and I... initially had sanji and rf too, bud sanji had some family function to attend, and rf was juz trying to be a jackass by saying no beer dun go... in the end govin and i realli went to get a bottle of e-33, to prepare to drink during the party later. After abt 30 min govin cldn't tahan anymore, so he popped open his bottle and started drinking... den we went to edeline's estate's function rm, where the thing was held... and saw tt they ordered canadian pizza. -.-'"... Eh i noe canadian pizza got this 2 for 1 offer la, bud the quality of food is seriously being compromised here. U muz noe other than their hawaiian, for every other type of pizza they hafta offer, every bite is quite a torture for me. I seriously miss pizza hut's pizzas lor. I realli tink with their standard, even half price per pizza for 2 is not worth the money lor. I'd rather u all spend more to get much better quality pizza from pizza hut lor, i can fork out some money if the funds not enuff, realli... at least it'll be more shiok than some canadian pizza... Anyway the juniors r still v sweet to organise a farewell party for us, we the seniors are realli v grateful. Thnx for the candles and the food (not including the pizza hor)!!! lolx... Hope we can come back nxt year to perform for the concert yar =D...

Ok onto today... today was supposed to be National Day Celebrations, bud the sch happily made it into a Community Service Day, and together with it we are to celebrate with the much dreaded Cultural Mapping... Anyway morning tt time we were supposed to go take care of the elderly and usher them arnd the sch, bud apparently they took their time to reach our sch, so wh seng and i went down to linkway to watch some other old folks sing karaoke... all the Teresa Teng oldies and some other unknown songs... lolx.. Den the old folks we were supposed to look after came, and we juz followed the schedule and guided them thru the sch.. Overall i felt tt we could haf done better, bud i'm sure the old pple had a fun time here la... bud frankly speaking, i tink its juz another one of the sch's devious plans to attract media attention onli la...

And den the main event for today... the CLASS OUTING!!! yes smth i was looking forward to... Well we initially planned to go Marina south seoul garden to eat there, den boss said there under renovation, so dunno if the seoul garden there affected anot... so in the end they changed to taka seoul garden. Upon reaching orchard mrt busstop smth wonderful happened... I realised i forgot to hand in the pink quiz forms. -.-'" N so i rushed to the other side of orchard and took a cab back to nj. Den i saw the cab got tv mobile on the back of the seats de... so cool... den ran back to the library to hand in the papers, bud bcoz i was already half an hour late of handing the papers, bcoz the deadline was 12 noon, so the teacher there took 3/4 of it onli... i was juz glad to be able to get rid of the papers la... took 171 back to taka there, den bcoz i forgot to bring my hp out in the morning, i din haf my hp with me, so had to use public phone to check where they were. And its been dunno how long since i last used a public phone lor... lolx... found out they changed to eating at Breeks there, the food was ok la... bud a bit slow ar... had to wait quite a long time, and bcoz i joined them later, it was like after everyone finished their food den my order came... bud anyway their Ocean was damn nice... o speaking of Ocean, Aaron ordered one too, bud he disappeared when his Ocean was served... So we happily went to sabo aaron and put all sorts of things inside his drink.. there was lemon juice, sugar, chili sauce (was there?), and best... coleslaw!! LOLX... den when he returned he din suspect anyting la.. except tt he asked me, "Eh does ur Ocean haf some crunchy thing inside?" lolx apparently he sucked up the coleslaw veg... den i juz told him no la, juz they din blend the ice well enuff.. lolx... After tt went to marina bay to go bowling.. v fun, juz tt aaron turkeyed, we all sian diao.. bud overall damn fun... lolx...

yes tml is National day, juz wan wish Singapore happy 40th b'dae, congratz, and yes hafta start mugging liaoz... Ms ng buey song liaoz, bcoz lecture test whole day been getting shitty scores and not making to hall of fame... even Sanji can confidently say he confirm HOF liaoz... haizzz tink i better rethink my life yar...

I really wish i can haf the chance to talk to u alone, coz there's so much i wanna tell u... bud it seems there will always be pple arnd us, disturbing the peace... and den there's u, not giving me the chance to express myself.. maybe is not the rite time yet, or maybe i'm too late... bud i juz wan let u noe, u'll always be here in my heart...

kyo burning with a fist of Neverdiminishing Flames...@11:07 PM