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Thursday, March 31, 2005

in the hot march rain...

The weather is mad... no the weather is crazy these days... sho blurdy friggin crazy... it was raining, and it was hot... i tink is more humid, bud it juz makes me feel hot, as in sweating tt typr of hot... and the sun wasn't even out. No wonder so many pple are falling sick nowadays, like wenhao... having sorethroat and headache... hope u get well soon yar...

Acherlli i oso wan fall sick... its been more than 2 years since i last fell truly sick.. as in truly run a fever and cannot go sch... i noe u all may tink i siao la, who wld wan fall sick... bud yar i wan fall sick... not everytime la, bud once in a while... 2 years le and i miss the feeling of falling sick... falling sick once in a while is quite shiok yar... yar i'm crazy too bud yar my previous attempts at falling sick were all in vain... haiz...

Acherlli it may juz be an excuse to pon sch... not bcoz of the boring lessons and lectures or bcoz i dun wan jiao hw... mainly bcoz i dun wan see her... the more i see her the more miserable i feel at the end of the day... last time no matter wad i wld wan go sch de lor... juz to see her for the day... even if i slightly not feeling well... bud now ar, i nth wrong oso dun wan go sch, bcoz i dun wan see her... And it realli pains me to live everyday liddat... i dun wan to live everyday liddat... i realli wish i noe wad's running thru her mind, if she realli does feel uncomfortable... and i wondering if she got herself a bf liaoz... smth deep inside me tells me she doesnt, bud smth deeper tells me she does... i dunno which to believe.. arrgghhh... damn i starting to sound like someone.... ops...

today during maths lecture, ns ng brought a tablet pc to conduct lecture... TABLET PC sia... anyways she use until halfway den she accidentally press the power button... den the whole thing shut down on her... den the whole lecture theatre applause.. lolx... bud tt wasnt the funny part yet... den after she reboot the com den show the login user name password tt blue screen... and den she blindly type in her user name... which is her IC no. and the whole LT saw... and now we noe her... ahem... yar lolx... learn smth new everyday yar...

i dun do gp hw... v sian... dun wan do projectile tutorial... dunno how to do.... v sian as well... i wan fall sick.... raaa

kyo burning with a fist of Neverdiminishing Flames...@9:21 PM
Thursday, March 24, 2005

hot

tonite is a veh hot nite, the air is veh still, veh humid, veh uncomfortable... and the fan is not helping... ar wad to do, dis is singapore sia....

k finally the ct's are over... except for physix s tt is... overall was not tt bad, juz tt for most of the papers, the ans i got to most of the qns r all i not confident of getting marks one... as in they dun make sense at all... ar anywae its over, dun wish to talk more abt it... f*** physix s la...

today was supp to be quite fun for me... after FM tt is... originally scheduled mahjong session with jim wenhao n seng ee de... den they yesterday cancelled it, changed it to swimming session... den yesterday nite cancelled again, changed to crash j1 orientation... which i wasn't quite interested in... well jim and wenhao had the maldives pple to pei them crash, so i tink they had a lot of fun. Acherlli i quite envious of the 2 of them, got to go maldives, got tons of cip hrs, got a gd tan, made so many new frenz, got new pespective in life... and i'm stuck here, feeling as miserable as i was b4... haiz... i'm back to being an outcast again sia...

N so i was sorta on my own today after the test. Went to a jamming studio in orchard to teach kaiyun to play drums... acherlli was more like refining her drumming. I tink i din teach much, juz told her a bit of basics, den let her practise... Didnt critically assess her weaknesses, which i shld haf done, den juz watched them practise... now i feel v bad, like i juz go there and do nth. Sianz. Den now she v stressed, bcoz she din improve much from today's practice, and den she got jam with mr malmsteen tml... I tink it was my bad, didnt make an effort to improve her skills. Haiz...

den after dinner, went to meet andy. Wanted to DotA de, budden bcoz honda and tham couldnt make it, den onli the 2 of us, so i suggested we play billiards one or 2 games and DotA la... ended up by the time our 1 or 2 games of billiards ended was like arnd 11 pm liaoz.. den wanted to play lan, budden see so many pple down there, den see the counter ger so busy... den we aiya tml den play la... den went home... btw the counter ger v sweet sia... kinda reminds me of someone... hmmm...

haiz juz wish i could be like him la... get lucky enuff to get tt special someone... bud juz dunno y it nv happens to me...

kyo burning with a fist of Neverdiminishing Flames...@11:58 PM
Friday, March 18, 2005

slack...

Har... Friday le... N i'm still less than 10% thru with my revision... now i starting to panic sia... i noe its not quite useful panicking now la.. bud i juz happen to panic.. rite, den i juz got reminded juz now that i hafta come up with tt GP project the write-up or smth liddat, and again i dunno wad's going on or wad to do... veh familiar feeling and not nice at all, feeling so helpless... sian...

today was basically a veh stupid day, in fact its not quite different from any other days during dis hols leh... tried to do a bit of maths, bud got veh sian shortly after... den went to watch Incredibles on my com, d/led yesterday thru the nite, den spent the rest of the afternoon doing eigen tutorial... bcoz i havent completed it yet...lolx... and dunno y, bud i haf a feeling eigen is coming out for FM... its juz a feeling, i dunno if it really is coming out on thur... o yah speaking of thur, after FM cannot immediately go play mahjong with the gang le... hafta rush of to orchard, den after tt see if got time rush back to wen hao's hse to see if can atleast finish 1 round... bud judging from the speed of our playing ar... lolx

Its been really vvv long since she last called... honestly speaking i realli miss the times we spoke on the phone... missed listening to her rattle on and on and on about all sorts of stuff... nowadays feel so lonely at home, altho my father is always around... bud i rarely speak to my family when i'm at home... at home the person i speak to most frequently is myself, second comes my pika... mmm pika... realli, not tt i'm some zi lian kuang or mentally sick la, bud... yar its juz how it goes at home... so... no one to talk to now, and those who noe me well noe tt i'm not the sort to call and initiate conversations de... i prefer msging.. and now i realli feel v empty, and of course v depressed... with all the pressure of sch, esp tt stupid cultural mapping... and now tt gp thingy... seriously cutting my life span man...

ar tt's all i hafta say now... and currently no one noes abt this blog juz yet... lets see how long this blog remains undiscovered ba... lolx

kyo burning with a fist of Neverdiminishing Flames...@10:26 PM
Tuesday, March 15, 2005

elloz

har... now i haf one here too... hi everyone....

kyo burning with a fist of Neverdiminishing Flames...@12:06 PM