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Some thoughts haf been straying in my mind for the past few months. Juz now, i went back into my depressed state, which occurs every once in a while, and den these thoughts juz kept affecting me. If i dun get some of them down they'll juz keep bugging me, so i was tinking maybe juz get them down den go back and mug or smth...

Every week i look foward to wednesdays and endure thru mondaes and tuesdaes... not juz bcoz they dun taste as gd as the sundaes frm swensons, bud wednesdays got firstly PE, secondly one lecture in sch onli, den one and half hours of free time to slack and tok abt stuff during civics, den there's charmed and cartoons at night and dis drama serial on channel u at 7.30pm called qing2 ding4 ai4 qing2 hai3, i dunno the english name. The cartoons and drama acherlli thurs and fri oso got, bud bcoz wed is start of the week for these, so look foward to wed. Anyway my main pt is not the wed part. Its the drama part.

This show, Qing2 Ding4 Ai4 Qing2 Hai3, i shall call it QDAQH for short, has gotten my mother all hooked onto it and i personally tink its a v nice show. Not juz bcoz the lead actress is pretty, bud oso i feel i can sort of click well with the characters and the way they interact, as in i fully understand how they feel and y they do the things they do, or say the tings they say. Honestly not many shows haf been able to make me feel liddat b4, maybe bcoz i experienced b4 wad some of the characters in the story go thru, den it juz makes me all melancholic and reflective over myself... Oso bcoz there r a lot of things abt life tt u can learn frm this show, and i haf been tinking abt some of the things they toked abt these few weeks...

Do wad u tink is rite, not wad others tink is rite for u. Pple often say we r the masters of our own life, therefore we control our own destiny. Maybe tt's y some pple dun believe in this thing called Fate. Bud i tink both sides are true and i partially believe in fate, while believing in controlling my own life as well. Sometimes u do things for a certain cause, bud sometimes ur actions will be affected by others, wad others say to u and the advices they give. Such advices may work well for certain pple, bud as of biology, there are always exceptions, bcoz some things in life u can nv be able to predict correctly, like pple's behaviour and reactions to certain stuff. Thus there will be different outcomes for pple taking the same advice. In the end the person tt screwed up bcoz he took tt advice will blame the 'advisor' for giving such a stupid idea and ruining his life. Advices onli do so much as to give u options on wad to do. Therefore the best thing to do is to judge for urself wad u shld do, rely on ur intuition to do the rite thing, however wrong it may be.. Coz tt's when u truly experience and learn for urself how to do it rite, and ur intuitive powers bcome more, correct. Tt's when u r truly in control of ur own life.

hmmm.... nvm lets carry on.

The show mentioned something abt frenship and love being mutually exclusive. Feelings of attraction can onli go so far btwn close frens, bud wun go further to the pt of relationship. Even if it does, the relationship wun last, and the couple realises they'r better off as frens. This oso seems to be the case from wad i observe in daily life, tho i wun cite specific examples. Budden i vaguely rmb sum1 saying tt most relationships arise due to frenship... er maybe they dun refer to long term frenship? hmm... Anyway the pt i'm trying to drive at is tt frenship shldnt be confused with love. If u'r meant to be frens den the 2 of u will forever remain frens, bud if u'r meant to be a couple den the mutual attraction shld start at quite an early stage. If there r examples to counter dis statement, plz fill me in on it... oh and dis paragraph izznt directed to anyone hor... its juz a thot tt wld like to share..

Prelims r arnd the corner, esp GP, in juz a few weeks time. Not as if i juz wrote some sort of essay la, dis doesnt count, bud its gd to get some practice here and dere...

Juz now when i was watching the show the ideas juz kept pouring in, bud now at 12 smth i tink i forgot most of them liaoz... shld haf written them down as i watched, den it wld realli haf bcame essay... maybe i shld do tt next time... tt'll be fun...

Tml got chem test and i still havent found my reaction kinetics notes. So dead. Aiya nvm... see how tml la.. and still got AQ to finish.. zzz