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Sad. back to being sad. means my resolution failed for this week yet again. Well i did make it a point to seem happier... bud on the whole in the end i still feel it was sad. haiz...

PW results got back le. Got a 3. A friggin band 3. Damn bloody disappointed. My whole grp got 3. While others in my class got a 2 or even a 1. Honestly speaking it came quite a shock to me, altho on the day itself i seem so bo dai ji eh... budden yet its still a disappointment. And i'm sure grace is disappointed too, altho she kept insisting she wasn't sad... bud i could sense the disappointment in her too. Yar even xinhui was sad tt she got a 3... so... i guess there nth i can do abt it now, juz let it be lor... no i shld say wad the teachers and my parents always want to hear me say... Do well for the A's to cover up for this... yup shall go pia tutorial l8terz...

SYF central judging for guitar club will be on the 28th, juz one day b4 jiahui's bdae.. Hope those are free will come down to support us yar... bcoz of this guitar club has been increasing practises and been v busy these days, especially the exco... we whole day brainstorming for ideas on how to improve the standards of our playing... like splitting into small grps and having mini competition, latecomers playing solo in front of everyone, asking non guitar pple to come hear us during our practises and give comments... so on and so forth... and i muz say the exco have really put in a lot of effort and grown a lot of white hair over this matter... for tt i applaud u all and would like to give my most heartfelt gratitude for all ur dedication to the club.... Thank you all for putting in so much effort... U guyz rock yar... so much such tt during last wed's practise, i really thot we sounded veri gd.... thinking abt how awful we sounded back den, i muz say we really haf improve a HELL lot, especially the guitar 2's and 3's... they really improved a lot. I not scared to say guitar 1 still got a lot to improve on, especially part B... bud we will continue drilling them and i'm sure b4 they actual ting itself we will be at our peak, our best... Gold with honours is not tt tough for us to get guyz, we can do it yar... It IS within our reach, so juz pia for these few weeks yar...

Cultural Mapping is almost over for the J2's, bcoz Mrs Thia says its time to hand over all the work to the J1's so tt we can concentrate on our studies. That's a gd ting rite... bud i not feeling happy... at least not now... not bcoz i like CM, bud bcoz to hand over the thing we, or rather I, hafta submit the draft for the brochure to the CM committee. And upload tt draft by yesterday. arnd 2 weeks ago i entrusted this task to jason and told him to discuss with the pple from his grp on coming up with the draft, bcoz i noe from last year's PW tt he was excellent for crapping out a piece of report. Gave him the structure of the thing and the interviews, which shld be enuff for him to come out with the statistical analysis for bt timah... bud 2 weeks later juz yesterday he passed me his draft, which i still din find satisfactory. Apparently he kept concentrating on the backgrnd info of wine and wrote a lot on wine itself, and since i onli handed him the interview transcripts, he says there wasn't enuff information. Well this project focuses mainly on bt timah, and altho i did put backgrnd info as part of the content for the brochure, i onli intended arnd 30% of it to be on backgrnd info. The rest shld talk about the situation on bukit timah. Anyway i had to hand in a draft and the CD containing the pictures and videos was also ready for submission, so i bo bian handed in tt draft together with the CD. Then jason told me to find someone else for the job. I believe it is all juz some communication breakdown between me and raeb la, i personally dun blame him, after all he is juggling between sch and his bunny... Oops shldnt haf said tt... bud yar.. In the end i tink i do it myself wld haf been better la... bud the transcripts are now with him. So i haf the next week to come up with another draft, one tt is more satisfactory... haiz....

Maybe its juz me, bud maybe its u too. I'm not blaming anyone, i'm juz hoping tt life could be a bit more beatiful and worth living, which doesn't necessarily mean i hafta be with u for it to happen. Of cuz i do wish to be with u, bud if u happier without me... den i guess it is only fair of me not bother u with my hope of being with u. I noe i'm not making any sense as usual, bud i really realli hope to get out of this darkness, which i haf been failing everyday as i try. Bud i noe i haf to succeed if i were to be happier again, so I will keep trying... haiz...

arr i tink tt's all i wanna write for today. Time to go pia tutorial le. Byez