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Today was vv cold, or at least i felt cold thru out the day... which is realli veh rare firstly, in Singapore, secondly at this time of the year... which is almost always very hot and humid... this onli means one thing... the weather is getting more n more crazy as days go by. Now when i say i was cold thru out the day, i meant both indoors and outdoors, all thru the day yes... U see in the morning when i woke up, it was still dark, so as of all mornings, it was naturally cold. Den when i went to sch the sky was quite grey le, so assembly was held in the hall, which had aircon on, and as u might wanna noe our sch hall de aircon is quite cold de... Den maths tutorial was in LT, so got aircon... Maths lecture oso in LT, aircon again.. Den came chem tutorial. I dunno wad they did to the LT 5 aircon, not tt i'm saying its bad, i kinda enjoyed it, better than not having aircon at all... Bud the moment i stepped into the LT, i started shivering le... the whole LT was freezing lor... den i was shivering thru out chem lec... den break it started raining, so again cold... and it continued raining thru out contact phy tutorial and chem tutorial. Den went LT 5 collect chem results, yes LT 5 again... den after tt CCA in LT 1, they turned on the aircon.. so again cold. den jiu night time le... so there u haf it, i was v cold thru out the day.

Now onto the main pt. I was reading a fish's blog over the past few days, and i got sorta inspired in a sense. For those who haf not been reading my previous blogs, i haf been blogging by feelings down and i muz admit... they were not happy feelings at all. Not happy at all. They were all abt my sadness and depression, sadness over her, over sch work, over my parents, and... well mainly over her. And i realised quite a long time ago tt those blogs of mine resembled entries of tt fish whose blog i read.

Recently an event changed tt fish entirely, got him a new perspective in life, got him matured, got him out of tt darkness. And he's happy now, truly happy... i tink... while i'm still stuck here in this pit of darkness, still wallowing in self-pity, still stuck up with sad and painful thoughts abt her... And den i was wondering... if other pple can do it, y cant i? Do i enjoy being in the current state i'm in? Definitely not... who enjoys being sad... Do i want to continue being in the current state i'm in? of cuz not... y wld i wan continue if i not enjoying it... tt's when i got inspired by his blog. After tt event he's writing abt all the joy of having left his sad past and "opened his eyes to see the world from a different view"... er i dun tink those were his words... too lazy to refer to ur blog and quote lolx... and i realise i wanna do tt too... Bud it might take me a trip down to maldives to do tt... and i cant afford to retain myself for 1 more year in NJ juz to haf another go at the maldives trip. Bud i wan get out of this dark side of mine and enjoy my life more... Therefore i haf a resolution for myself... To juz return to my old self, try my v best to accept what i haf now, the pple arnd me now, try my best to forget abt her, and learn to let myself go... Now tt cultural mapping for the J2's is coming to a close, we'r handing all the stuff over to the J1's now, this means a whole load of pressure away from me for rest of the year, i hope i can truly feel the joy of life... the pleasure of freedom... b4 the prelims and A levels come... Man wad a spoiler.. sian..

An almost complete set of common test results i haf... CDEE i got... Not gd, not gd at all.. and i still yet to get GP back. And i dun expect to pass tt paper, i truly dun... i noe i did v badly for tt paper... Altho so far i haf passed my papers, including physix S (^^), it is BUT A PASS!! Honestly speaking it is not wad i wan, bcoz i noe i can do better... and i wan to do better.. At least get myself an A for MC... wad's an FM student without an A in MC for A levels? Therefore my second resolution is to really sit down and mug... i noe i noe it is realli not my nature do such a sacred act... bud yar... i really slack too much le la... altho i tink i wun accomplish it...lolx

Acherlli there's a lot more i wanted to tok abt de... more resolutions i set for myself thru out the day... more stuff i thot abt toking while i was in the shower juz now.. bud my age is catching up on me... i forgot wad i wan say liaoz... Well it ok, i tink i toked a hell lot today, shant bore u guyz out anymore with more words.. so i guess tt's all for today... May my life be much better after today.. yar =)